September 23, 2020
September 16, 2020
I've been slacking with this blog. Partly because I'm forgetful and I need to set a schedule for blogging. Wednesday's seem to be a good choice. I think I'm just going to wing it. Just shoot from the hip with this one. I've done the reading about "How to create a winning blog" "just write about a specific topic" blah blah blah. I'm going to write about what I want and how I feel and if you dig it then welcome aboard. Life is too short anyway and like the late great Frank Sinatra said, "I did it My Way!"
February 27, 2020
Being an Artist, maybe one of the most painstakingly difficult pursuits one can strive for but I will never quit. How could I at this point in my life? How can I set the example for my son, if I just gave up at this moment? Believe me, I've thought about it more than once. Simply throw everything I've worked for up to this point, give up on the sacrifice and dedication to this craft. It would be easy to get a side job and not have a quarter of the stress I put on myself.
To give up now would be the equivalent of selling my soul. I will never quit. Art is my true purpose. It will be a real-life demonstration, for my son, that through hard work, education and perseverance, one can make almost any dream become reality.
February 19, 2020
Alright, I'm still riding the glow of this fatherhood gig. As difficult as it can be at times it still is the best thing to ever happen in my life. One of the greatest things I heard in the stress-filled months prior to our little guy's arrival was, just "Let it Change You". That piece of advice really stuck with me. Becoming a father later on in life, 38 to be exact, I've witnessed the difference and lack thereof, in the mindset of becoming a new parent. It amazes me how some will put forth so much energy into continuing their lives as if nothing has changed, in the rare cases it is to be applauded but for many, I've seen at what expense that choice has made and in the end, it will truly affect their child in ways they may never see for years to come. I can only judge others in silence and if I'm ever asked my opinion all I can do is reiterate is..."Let it Change You"
For me, it's opened up a whole new world of adventure and excitement. The future is not filled with hopes and dreams of just my own, it's become a wonderland of what may be as I help guide my son through this life as we prepare him for this world. I can't wait to take him on our yearly family excursions. From a little coastal town in Maine too far off destinations around the globe. You see it changed me because it's not about just me anymore. It's about him first. Not to the point where one totally loses themselves in the day to day bustle of parenthood. That I can't understand, you need time for yourself to reflect, decompress and become centered, this will truly bring your best self forward as a parent and an overall person. I still want to set an example. My art is my passion, one that fatherhood has slowed down rather significantly but, it will help show him to find a purpose in this life and never give up on himself.
Let it change you, it's still you.... and try your best.
Click the fatherhood link at the beginning of this post for a cool article about the brain and what happens once you become a father.
February 06, 2020
So it's been about a month. My birthday is on December 30th and this past one I turned the big 40. It's funny how much one thinks he knows of the world at our early stages of adulthood when in reality I feel like this age is the beginning of actually understanding my place during this point in history. I've made many a mistake but at least I can stand on my own two feet, proof that one can change the path of one's life with sheer determination and a little hard work.
At this age and only now am I understanding the true meaning of fatherhood. I wouldn't change the path I've taken for anything in this world. One look into my son's eyes and it all makes sense now. This is was the path I was meant to follow. This journey has sent me abroad during my military career. I had a rather eventful and interesting few years after that. A little lost and trying to find my way, until the fire service began and it began a new path of redemption and servitude.
Then I discovered my purpose. My desire to create once again came calling and the beginning of my Artistic discovery began. It's has tested my grit and determination and I'm in wonder as to where it will take me for this is a life-long desire that will never subside.
Lastly, as I try to appreciate every day as best I can. I have to take a moment and remember those that have touched my life in so many ways. Past family members, friends, and associates that have forever last their lasting marks on my own life. Tonight's glass of Bourbon will be dedicated to every single one of them.